Fountain

Think of yourself as a fountain. You can only bubble up and out if you stay in your center - and it's not even a center - an axis. An axis that goes through your body and connects the bottom of your feet to the top of your head. The ground and the sky are connected through your centeredness. There is a lot of information. There is not enough joy.

Meditating on sage smoke How it curls How it hastens and slows. A sip of coffee and a whiff of sage Cool morning warm breath. Just a morning in my body And how is it October already? What creased my brow and occupied my forehead was yesterday This peace is like a forgiving, forgetting slumber All the little darts and arrows I thought pierced me I take them out, I heal it all With a wave of my mind I turn them into sticky darts and I let them lose their grip See them all slide off I breathe into the spaces My body is un-pierced once again No pointy edges From now on.

new moon thoughts

9:28 a.m. Drill down into the single building blocks, the one single brick that makes up a life, that makes it whole and complete. Being thankful, feeling genuine gratitude for each and every component. Each healthy minute. You don't even have to say thank you. Just feel deeply grateful. A new and fresh look at life on the virgo new moon. Intention is when your heart and mind align. [heart: what your inner compass points to] [mind: what your conditioning accepts / is able to comprehend and visualize] Prayer is your heart's business. Goals are your mind's business. In meditation, what matters is coming back to your center. Your spinal axis. Dancing on a new moon hits differently. So I did just that. Tea smells better. Food tastes more delicious. "Perky" I hope it's the same for everyone today.

It's a slow realization but I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that my big "applause" moments are behind me, not necessarily my best days. But the loud, vocal, public approval moments that come when you hit youth milestones. The college acceptances, the graduations, the concerts, the wedddings, the births of your babies. Those moments will probably come from/through my kids, in time. And that's also amazing.

happiness

Meditation thought: "happiness is my birthright". Turns out I've been struggling to internalize this seemingly basic, fundamental belief. Recite, pause, and repeat. But then, comes gratitude. Add a dash of gratitude to happiness and then the feeling is grounded, ready to meet the world in its childlike excitement. With a fresh loaf of bread in the oven right here and right now, I invite Rumi to sum it all up: I know nothing better than gratitude which brings in its wake the daily bread and its increase.

childhood meditation

As a child I would frequently drape my body over the backside of a couch, hang upside down, look up and imagine the ceiling was the floor. The furniture-less, empty apartment was a blank canvas for me to bike and run around in my imagination. That was my way of carving some space just for me in a busy, crowded city. Now I know it was a type of meditation. Instead of closing my eyes, I stared at the ceiling and got lost in the whiteness.

brb, celebrating

Every moment is a reason for celebration. Therefore I'm too busy celebrating.