i want the sense of lightness that a good experience brings. nothing heavy. not wanting the moment back. the feeling of having inhaled and exhaled with no difficulty. having been a part of the flow.
-but then again sometimes-
i obsess over one little moment of happiness, and even if it's just a tiny one, i chase after it in my mind and believe i'll take back that moment if i keep running after it.
and sometimes it's best to forget. sometimes you need prudence, indifference, detachment. to say 'i passed the test'. in quiet preparation to be able to say, 'i want to see mountains again, mountains, Gandalf'.