and Chet Baker says, "Everything happens to me." I echo.
i wonder why i take it so physically
The only real part of the game is the end, where i lose.
Superdorm, the year of obsessing over Baris, the line-up of each and every object, everything in its place
for the tissue to heal, the body part to grow back in
curl up into someone's body
today, i didn't expect a heartbreak
marries her safest bet and lives boringly ever after
bildigimi dusundugum zaman gidiyor. geri geldigi zaman oyle dusunmuyor oluyorum.
is it a feeling or is it a hormone, body juice, a mindset, a certain state?
maybe not in a bad way, maybe not in a way i can't mend or time can't mend
felt like the lost piece of a puzzle finally found
being sad can't be too bad if there's such a beautiful song about it?
Epsilon Sigma Pi
in order of disappearance
her body was probably not a wonderland
it's actually how i feel as opposed to being merely an ice-breaker
"i'm just a shot away from you"
asik olurmusum ve daha da asik olurmusum gibi
yolculugu severim belki o yuzden
But at least i know my mistakes in this one and that i might have deserved some of it, that some of it is consequences -- whereas when you jump into something instantly intense, you keep wondering what the hell you've done wrong to suffer all the aching.
herkesi unuttum ve kimseyi hatirlamiyorum
it will be a short term memory type of thing
a smile and an easy breath
natural, is the word
thankful for all my senses, seeing the sky, feeling the cold, remembering how we walked those streets wanting to be somewhere else instead.
perfectionista olmayi ben de istemezdim ama
what do i really want?
(i want to be a part of it, New York, New York)
feels like he wants a piece of my soul and i am not able to give it
try to take a walk and the shore will be really windy. stay home and clean but you know you could have been travelling with a good friend. yeah, the bug is inside you now.
love, an issue?
Başladığım ve bitirmediğim şeyler:
not like aching missing but remembering-and-smiling missing
daha bu sabah cocuklugunu dusunmustum -- dedemin bizi tanistirdigi gunu dusunmustum.
stingy bees in butterfly disguise
bana gunes sutu surerken babamin parmaklarinin kaburgalarimin uzerinden tikir tikir gecmesi, her seferinde, jaluziden asagi inen bir el gibi
Guzel bir ruzgar var. Uzaktayim. Aklim tam olarak oyle mi bilmiyorum ama vucudum oyle.
both lip-synching to Something Stupid
my dancing, jitterbug self
choose the funny approach
shelter, food, and people to travel with, people you love.
Bliss. Home. Breakfast. Coffee. Joy.
came home feeling like a left out kid
what his grown-up self looks like
Otherwise i'm just trying things on. taking risks and gambling with my life in a sense. i lose, but i win too.