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full moon at 7.52 a.m

we woke up really early in the morning, despite his late night with his poker buddies. we went downhill to the waterfront, ran, and watched the sun rise through the land across from us as we ran. we had coffee by the sea -i had coffee he had orange juice- and then i ran some more. "i am training for the istanbul marathon tomorrow." here i am sitting writing after a nice warm shower. we were awake and running by the water as the universe aligned the past, present and the future. seriously, you all were sleeping while you should have been envisioning your resolutions. haha.

pamukkale, aile havuzlari

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cok eskiden, yaza denk gelen pazar gunlerinde (ben her ne kadar erkenden gitmek istesem de hazirliklar bir turlu bitmediginden) ogleden sonraya dogru belediye tesislerinin 'aile havuzlarina' giderdik. bunlar dort duvar arasinda, pamukkale suyuyla dolu ve ailelere tahsis edilmis dikdortgen minik havuzlardi, ve yer bulmak o kadar da kolay degildi. babam once bir telefon ederdi, benim zar zor oldugunu dusundugum ya da oyle dusunmek istedigim bir sekilde yer ayirtirdi. o anda sevincime ragmen (aile havuzuna gidiyoruz!!) nedense benim icime baska bir aileyle de havuzumuzu paylasmak zorunda kalacagimiz korkusu duserdi. anneanneme telefon edilir, annem sanki daha karar verilmemis gibi 'cocuklar gitmek istiyorlar' diye agir agir anlatirdi, halbuki yerimiz bile ayirtilmisti, diye dusunurdum, anneannem kurabiyelerini hazirlamaya baslardi; birileri aranir onlar da davet edilirdi. evin icinde telasla dolasilir, 'anne, bikinimin ustu nerde' gibi sorular sorulurdu. tek alinm…

not

dogru, az yaziyorum. bugunlerde palette'lerimle ve fotograflarimla daha cok ilgiliyim. belki de daha gorsel bir donemimdeyim. yazmaya gerek duymuyorum/zaman da bulamiyorum. simdilik boyle. sonrasi allah kerim.
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Phoebe:

"Money and a firm hand. Finally a Chandler I can get on board with." (foxy smile and flirty attitude)

Reddish shades

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Fethiye

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Save the last dance

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Cold cut

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Sentimental mood

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Hope

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nowadays

on facebook, everyone seems to have made it to the cover of their own magazine.

elevation

i have to write down how i'm feeling today. it's incredible. i feel very serious, like i mean business but i'm not dull, i have energy that lasted all day. i don't need anything else to complete my joyous state of mind. the here and now is good enough, it's very good. i look in the mirror and see there is a light in my eyes. i didn't sleep well last night but i don't feel the lack of sleep at all. i go through my tasks like they are the easiest things to do, i talk to the silliest people without hesitation and without that sense of stranglement. it's interesting but it's not. when you think about jupiter and my sun together and the sun in sextile with both, it's not interesting at all. but it's rare, and i wrote it down so i can go back and read it on my low-energy days. i wish i could be this way- wish i could be this person 24/7.

my new palette

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thoughts

- yes, i thought it through.
- yes, i'm hundred per cent sure.
- i think this is absolutely for the best.

is it? you don't know. the signs point in the general direction of something positive but are they real, actual signs, or are they dreams, schemes and promises for the most part? you didn't look that closely. or you're so deep within that you didn't look from the outside. because you can't afford to. because you're in love.
you wish that was enough in and of itself.
you think maybe it is.

zoom in zoom out

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winter

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kirmizi hirka istiyorum diyordum kizlara. sonra dolarin ne kadar dustugunu farkettim. ben daha kirmizi hirka istiyim. zaten yakinda bi lokma bi hirka olucam.
fesupanallah.